Guardian Angel.

I dreamed about him last night. I dreamed that I was driving along a road that was starting to flood. On the side of the road was a white two story house with green trim (sounds kind of like my house, but it wasn't). There was a river rushing by behind it. In my dream I thought to myself, "Wow, I almost moved into that house but I'm glad I didn't because it fell over off of it's foundation." Sure enough, it was tilted off to the side and not even on it's foundation. The foundation was still there with a little piece of it's white wall still stuck to it. I kept driving and came to a bridge. All of a sudden I was standing there and my car was gone. I needed a car to get over the bridge. I looked to my right and saw a shiny silver trailer/mobile home next to the tipped-over house. I realized that someone had moved out of the house and into that trailer. It actually looked very safe and clean and shiny. It was up on stilts, away from the water rushing by. Behind me the road was filling up with water and in front of me was this big paved bridge with a green railing. All of a sudden I realized that my grandpa (who is dead) was driving up the flooded road towards me. He was driving a silver volvo (and then I saw/heard about two silver volvos today--of course. I dunno...???) I wanted to ask him for a ride, but when I looked back, he was turning around in the water and starting to go back. Then it got really weird from there. I dunno. Another silver car, but it was a toy car and my grandpa and I were trying to cross the bridge, but there was a plexiglass door in our way, yada yada, crazy dream nonsense... I just thought it was an interesting dream. My grandpa is buried right up the hill from me. I do believe that he is my guardian angel. I believe that he guided me to this house, to this place. I belong here. I think about leaving, but I know that I can't. Not now. I still really want to change my last name to my mom's maiden name, my grandfather's last name. I want a name of my own. I don't want my parents' name, I don't want my ex-husband's name, I want a name of my own. We'll see.