January 24, 2012.

So I texted Jason today. I told him I hadn't taken the class that was required for our divorce to be final. He said it was too late to take it. I asked him what effect that had on the divorce. He said, "Nothing. We are divorced already. Today as a matter of fact." Interesting. So today is the day. Tomorrow will be my first day as a divorced woman. I better get used to the phrase "ex-husband" now. I talked to my older sons. And then I cried. I miss them. I haven't cried much. But talking to them did it to me. They are okay with their dad. He is a good father. I'll be okay. I'll adjust to being a single parent, to not having all of my children with me, to the children I have with me not having a father around. We'll be okay. Goodbye Jason. We will remain friends, I am sure of it. He is not a bad person. I wish my feelings for him hadn't changed, but they did. We had become such different people. I still feel that I chose a good father for my children. We will all be okay.